My boyfriend works endlessly to support us and our fur babies. He is patient and kind and in touch with his emotions, we can talk about issues that arise between us and outside of our relationship. We have common goals and dreams. He encourages me on my worst days and loves me on my best. He never judges nor breaks me down. He truly accepts me: flaws and all.
My mother is my rock and backbone. She has never ever let me fall alone .Whenever I was down she took the time to build me back up. All the trouble I got into in high school (which trust me, was a lot) she just dealt with it. When I brought home my first girlfriend she just asked her if she was staying for dinner. Then when I started dating a guy she did't bat an eye. She never missed a soccer game or pageant or parade or concert or track meet all while working two jobs. My mother is my super hero and definitely my guiding light in the dark world I walk.
Alissa Ann my sister has become such a good friend to me, this is something amazing because we didn't grow up close at all. We fought so much it genuinely stressed my mother out, she rarely came to any game or anything I was in in school, She moved out after my freshman year so she could have her own life and only came back when Mommie had surgery. Even after not seeing her for two years we fought like hell. Hindsight revealed a lot to me. She paid for my senior year, single handedly bought all the things I had. To this day she loans me money when I need help. She jokingly asked me when did she give birth to me last time I was home because I asked her to give me gas money. I paused and said about 17 years ago. She has been my big sister longer than I've acknowledged and definitely my other guardian. I love her and am so thankful for the relationship we are building as adults. We have missed so much.
I have a great support system in mmy friends. We talk to each other when we can, we are understanding that life is a thing thats happening, and we are all adults about it. Regardless of the location they are I know they are there for me. My best friend of early 15 years chats with me daily. My sister wives from high school (10 years in the making and still going strong) talk to me weekly and we plan get togethers around holidays so that all our different addresses can be the same even if its for just a weekend, And my beach babe is my daily motivation to not give into depression, She reminds me that even getting dressed and sitting on the porch is something to celebrate on the roughest days. My dear A&F connect is still a strong soul that I never realized I needed, his dedication to me is so reassuring especially when I feel as tho I don't even matter. My friends are truly a gift and their friendship cannot be replaced.
Panda and I may not be rich, but we are truly blessed. We live meaningful lives, we have a roof over our head and food for ourselves and our furkids. No we can't go shopping when we want and we may be viceless longer than we like, but all our necessities are met, We have everything we need. Maybe not all we want, but then again who ever does?
My life may not be anywhere I imagined it would be by now, but its so much farther than I expected it to be. I am in a committed relationship where the possibility for real grow is present. I have a small handle on a pretty serious mental illness and all the support and encouragement I could ask for from a pretty awesome circle. Thing could always be better, but I am in love with where they are. There is so much room for growth and I am able to see that. I am able to envision the possibilities, and just a year or so ago I could barely envision breathing. Now I'm fighting to live every day. Baby steps get me just a bit closer to the finish line... and I am thankful for each step I take.
Proud of you.
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